Alis volat propiis
Judul diatas diambil dari Bahasa Latin yang artinya di dalam English adalah "She Flies with Her Own Wings". Why I choose that sentence as a title? Because from now on I flies with my own wings. Yes, I'm a single and availoveable now (welcome back ijo lumut, ikatan jomblo lucu dan imut, huehehe).
Life's a dance, we all have to do
what does the music require?
people are moving together
close as the flames in a fire
feel the beat, music and rhyme
while there is time
we all go 'round and 'round
partners are lost and found
looking for one more chance
all I know is,
we're all in the dance
(We're all in the dance-Feist)
Sekali lagi aku harus menghadiri pemakaman hatiku sendiri, menisankan kenangan di dalamnya. Sedih? Pasti. Airmata yang sudah kucerai, kini datang rujuk kembali.
Tidak menulis kemarin bukan karena dengan entengnya aku melewati semuanya, a big NO.
Kalau saja aku menuliskan gimana tepatnya perasaan kemarin, pasti tulisan itu juga bakalan persis sama dengan tulisanku di post sebelumnya (Preview), haha, bagi yang belum membaca, monggo, silahkeun dibaca dulu, ga bayar ko :p
Jadi, what I've done at those time is let the brain and heart compromize first, and ready to build one additional piece of wall which is purpose to be "my heart's protector" again.
Call me denial, self defense, allergic or whatever you called it, yes, I am.
So what if I become that kind of person? I think with these walls protect me, aku bakalan tau siapa yang ga bakalan nyerah, siapa yang pantas aku hargai usahanya. A lil' bit arrogant maybe, but that's the only way to me to filter who can survive and who doesn't.
Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have
maybe I didn't love you
quite as often as I could have
little things I should have said & done
I just never took the time
But you were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
Maybe I didn't hold you
all these lonely, lonely times
and I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine
if I made you feel second best
Boy, I'm sorry I was blind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
(Always on my mind-Michael Bubble)
You must be think that I didn't care 'bout you at all, you're wrong boy, I really-really care, even I didn't show you at that time. You must be doubt about me, yes I know, just because I didn't give you million attentions as often as other girl does.
I know that I'm being so selfish lately, individualis, care less, and do some oh-not-so-cool stuffs.
We're not in a junior high school anymore, so I think it's enough to being in this condition, to being stuck with this galau stuff. I can't let myself hold on this situation any longer.
I can't forgive myself to let you think that you're a bad person, no, you're not, you're the kindest, the best I've ever met.
Jadi, sebelum aku bener-bener mutusin untuk gabung di Gerombolan Siberat Fans Club karna udah jadi kriminalis hati (eaaaa, hahaha), I let you go, I let you fly without feel bad bout' anything.
Just one reason to me to take that kind of decision: I never want to see you unhappy.
So, this is it, I'm quit.
My friend once told me this kind of statement:
"if you don't want me but you need me, I stay, but if you want me but no longer need me, it's time for me to go"
Yeh, this is your time to go Rizta.
People say that "time heals the wound"
Yes, it does, but they forget to tell me about "time flies, but memories stay"
So, here I am, trying to live my life with all those memories.
Do they hurt me? No, they don't.
Setelah sekian lama aku berharap kebiasan lupaku ini bakalan ilang, ini disaat harapanku terkabul (walaupun bisa dibilang momennya kurang tepat, sigh), terus kenapa aku harus mengingkari? mencoba untuk pura-pura lupa?
Biarlah kutadahkan saja tangan ini memanjatkan doa, yang terbaik untuk kita berdua. Biar tak hanya kita pada akhirnya yang tersenyum melihat dunia, tetapi Tuhan pun ikut tersenyum melihat kita :)
Life's a dance, we all have to do
what does the music require?
people are moving together
close as the flames in a fire
feel the beat, music and rhyme
while there is time
we all go 'round and 'round
partners are lost and found
looking for one more chance
all I know is,
we're all in the dance
(We're all in the dance-Feist)
Sekali lagi aku harus menghadiri pemakaman hatiku sendiri, menisankan kenangan di dalamnya. Sedih? Pasti. Airmata yang sudah kucerai, kini datang rujuk kembali.
Tidak menulis kemarin bukan karena dengan entengnya aku melewati semuanya, a big NO.
Kalau saja aku menuliskan gimana tepatnya perasaan kemarin, pasti tulisan itu juga bakalan persis sama dengan tulisanku di post sebelumnya (Preview), haha, bagi yang belum membaca, monggo, silahkeun dibaca dulu, ga bayar ko :p
Jadi, what I've done at those time is let the brain and heart compromize first, and ready to build one additional piece of wall which is purpose to be "my heart's protector" again.
Call me denial, self defense, allergic or whatever you called it, yes, I am.
So what if I become that kind of person? I think with these walls protect me, aku bakalan tau siapa yang ga bakalan nyerah, siapa yang pantas aku hargai usahanya. A lil' bit arrogant maybe, but that's the only way to me to filter who can survive and who doesn't.
Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have
maybe I didn't love you
quite as often as I could have
little things I should have said & done
I just never took the time
But you were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
Maybe I didn't hold you
all these lonely, lonely times
and I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine
if I made you feel second best
Boy, I'm sorry I was blind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
(Always on my mind-Michael Bubble)
You must be think that I didn't care 'bout you at all, you're wrong boy, I really-really care, even I didn't show you at that time. You must be doubt about me, yes I know, just because I didn't give you million attentions as often as other girl does.
I know that I'm being so selfish lately, individualis, care less, and do some oh-not-so-cool stuffs.
We're not in a junior high school anymore, so I think it's enough to being in this condition, to being stuck with this galau stuff. I can't let myself hold on this situation any longer.
I can't forgive myself to let you think that you're a bad person, no, you're not, you're the kindest, the best I've ever met.
Jadi, sebelum aku bener-bener mutusin untuk gabung di Gerombolan Siberat Fans Club karna udah jadi kriminalis hati (eaaaa, hahaha), I let you go, I let you fly without feel bad bout' anything.
Just one reason to me to take that kind of decision: I never want to see you unhappy.
So, this is it, I'm quit.
My friend once told me this kind of statement:
"if you don't want me but you need me, I stay, but if you want me but no longer need me, it's time for me to go"
Yeh, this is your time to go Rizta.
People say that "time heals the wound"
Yes, it does, but they forget to tell me about "time flies, but memories stay"
So, here I am, trying to live my life with all those memories.
Do they hurt me? No, they don't.
Setelah sekian lama aku berharap kebiasan lupaku ini bakalan ilang, ini disaat harapanku terkabul (walaupun bisa dibilang momennya kurang tepat, sigh), terus kenapa aku harus mengingkari? mencoba untuk pura-pura lupa?
Biarlah kutadahkan saja tangan ini memanjatkan doa, yang terbaik untuk kita berdua. Biar tak hanya kita pada akhirnya yang tersenyum melihat dunia, tetapi Tuhan pun ikut tersenyum melihat kita :)
Depok, 06 Oktober 2011, 3:12 AM
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